There is a nameless muse that lives inside my brain.¬† She is very disturbed¬†and that’s what makes her a great writer.¬† She does not make an appearance when I need her to.¬† Only when I am surrounded my chaos and noise does she step forward and say, “Let’s write.”¬† I try to lure her out with loud music after the kids have gone to bed and I have hours of time to myself.¬† But she isn’t interested.¬† She is selfish and jealous and last month I decided to put her in time-out.¬† We will see if this time has given her some perspective.
In March I set a goal for myself: 1,000 words a day.¬† From March 11th through April 16th I kept to my goal.¬† But then I hit a wall.¬† I can’t explain what happened, exactly.¬† I started having issues with Thing 1 and I guess it all just got to be too much.¬† I took a break and got my personal life in order (well, the best order I could.¬† Let’s not get crazy now) and I am so glad that I did.¬† I set a goal to start writing again on May 18th and finishing (come Hell or high water) on June 1st.¬† I can do this, I told myself.¬†
Then about halfway through April, my muse sticks her tongue out at me and says “It’s not working.¬† Your¬†protagonist’s character profile is all wrong.”¬†¬†I laugh at her, because what the hell does she know? Come to find out, the little bitch was right.¬† It wasn’t working.¬† I send BFF an urgent text, in which she responds loyally “You’re right, it isn’t.¬† But you can make it work.”¬† Not in those exact words, she will argue.¬† But that is how I will remember it in my acknowledgements :)¬†
Tomorrow I will begin re-molding my character and changing the story to reflect these changes and everything will be fine.¬† I will reach my goal of 40,000 words by June 1st. In addition, I will blog every Friday.¬† I may blog about movies or my car or cheesecake (I really love cheesecake).¬† But dammit, I will blog.¬† I will¬†query and I will query widely and proudly and I will land an agent.¬† Oh, yes…The summer is mine, people.¬†
Have a great weekend